Just An FYI

Please people, this is my blog, I choose what to write. It is about my life and my thoughts, sometimes it is basic, sometimes it is funny and sometimes it is bold or harsh.
But again it is my blog, my life, my thoughts, my feelings. I welcome comments, emails, whatever, but I don't allow you to attack me personally and hide behind the name "Anonymous" have some guts and be yourself.

Trust me my life hasn't be pretty, but it is my life and I have accepted I got the short end of the stick for many years, but I learned to stand up for myself and my kids and clearly it isn't liked by some.

Call my whatever you want, but don't hide while doing it.

If you don't like what I have to say, then please just move along and don't read my blog, don't come back if your opinion of me is so bad. Really, I am not hurt or upset in the least. I however don't want to drag those that do like to read my blog into your senseless comments. I will not keep responding and engaging people anymore.

For those of you that have hung around, I thank you greatly. I promise this is the end of the drama. I really can't stand it, and try to avoid it. Sometimes I have no choice, because I won't let others lie and attack me for no reason.

I wish all my haters to find a life and possibly some happiness. I couldn't imagine living a life where you think everything is about you & anyone who disagrees with you is evil and dumb. Please move along, find something that makes you happy. Life is an amazing thing, don't waste it being like that.
If you still have to stalk me and my blog then so be it, I can't stop you.

Now back to happiness!!!

Yay, We Are Booked...Finally!

So yesterday was the big day in Disney planning. I usually start thinking about our next vacation on the drive home from Disney.
Yes, I know this sounds insane, seeing as we go every 3 yrs. But you have to understand it is like a coping skill I do. If I didn't start thinking about the next one I would be very depressed to be leaving. I am still very sad, but knowing we have another to plan for helps. When we were driving home from our last trip in October of 2010, I started thinking about this trip, and was very excited to start planning.

This one is going to be big in terms of firsts & lasts. This will be the first time we will go with all 3 kids, this will be a first trip for Tessa, this will be the first time I get to experience Disney World with a little girl.
But the lasts make me sad too. This will be the last trip for Travis as a kid, it will be the last time I have all 3 of my kids with while they are all kids.

We will still take trips with all 3 in the future, but the next trip Travis will be in college, and possibly unable to go due to classes, and money. Yes, we are mean parents and will require him to help pitch in towards the trip if he chooses to come after the age of 18. (we just aren't made of money, yet)

So I had the dates planned since October of 2010, now I just needed to wait till that ever important day when Disney releases their prices for 2013, and opens the reservation window for 2013.
I quickly did some final calculations earlier this week, trying to guess when the kids will have off school for MEA (3rd Thursday, Friday in Oct). I panicked when I discovered the dates I was assuming were wrong!

OH CRAP!!!

MEA falls on the week of Columbus Day in 2013. Why is this bad, well we will be arriving the day before Columbus Day, thus our first day in the parks is.... Yep, Columbus Day!
The parks will be busier then normal, but I have heard the crowds die down a lot after. *SIGH* Crisis over!

Sent in my info for what resort we were wanting, dates, our info, and what type of package we wanted. I was set.
Yesterday, I get my quote. Hmm.... I change my mind, change resorts, no problem. Got my new quote, find the credit card, and... Booked it!!

We will be gone 16 days total with drive time (can't afford to fly & don't like to), we will have 11 nights & 12 days at Disney World. Now the fun begins. While some think there is plenty of time to plan everything, there isn't. I feel a great amount of stress (good stress) about making sure everything is thought of and taken care of. This is the one time, every 3 yrs we all go on vacation as a family. Dennis works long & hard to provide this for us, and he enjoys the relaxation of no responsibility. He tells me to just tell him where to be and what time. He is a different person, and we cherish this family time more then anything. We don't have the worry or stress of regular life for those short 16 days.
I want to take extra care and time to make sure this trip is as extra special as possible, due to all the firsts & lasts.

I hope to take lots of pictures, plan many special moments, and just really take it all in through Tessa's eyes. I may even try to do a blog post while there as well, but if not I will periodically update and post to face book during our trip. I am sure like usual in the past I will be in constant contact with my brother and his family, as well as texting pictures to them. I am so fortunate to be so close to my brother & his family, then when either of us goes on vacation we text and send picture frequently to each other each day. We tend to live vicariously through each others trips.

Oh, and Dennis through me for a loop last night, normally I just tell him the brief details, and how much I need to pay for a deposit. Last night he wanted to know the final price..Yikes!!!
Let's pray for a discount to be announced next year!!

Today Is All About Kaden!

Today is Kaden's birthday! He is 9, and I am sitting here wondering where the time went. It seems like just yesterday I was checking into the hospital to be induced with what I believed at the time was my last baby.

Look how cute he was, he was also at that time my smallest baby.

No, that isn't Kaden holding a baby, that is Travis holding Kaden!!

He is such a very smart, funny, creative,and active little boy. He is always making me laugh, and, amazing me with his creativity and imagination. He never sits still, and is always thinking.

When asked what he wanted for his birthday, he only said he wanted to skip it this year. He doesn't feel like being the center of attention.
We have come to a compromise, I made 42  cupcakes ( he couldn't decide between yellow cake or chocolate, we did both) with red and blue frosting, we have Lego candles.
We will go to Red Lobster for dinner so he can have crab legs, and we will take him shopping so he can pick out some presents.

I have a hard time believing that he is already 9, and will be a 4th grader in the fall. I remember someone once told me, "if you think time is going fast, just wait till you have kids." And I have to say, they were right.

So today, we are all about Kaden, and making him feel as special as we can. Birthdays are a big thing when you are a kid. I don't ever want my kids to not feel extra special on their big day.

So here are a couple pictures of Kaden now, yep looks just like his brother. And I think he is pretty darn cute too.

Have a great day Kaden. I hope you have only the happiest, and best life has to offer. I am so proud of you, and love you so much! ♥

Planner Or Spontaneous?

When I get up with Tessa in the middle of the night, I try to think about things so I don't fall asleep and sleep in the recliner with her.
I usually do some of my best thinking and problem solving while I am rocking her, or in the shower. I think it is because the house is quiet, and I have no distractions.

So at 3 am I was thinking about life, well my life and if I was a planner or just spontaneous. I came to the conclusion I am both!
I think it just depends on what the situation is as to which one I am.

If we are talking about a vacation or Disney, then yes I am a planner. BIG TIME!
If we are talking about the kids summer break or any school break, and weekends I am spontaneous.

When we have a Disney trip planned ( which lets me honest, is always) I make lists, and take notes, I visit message boards, blogs, any and every site I know to get the latest info, and to help plan so everything can be magical. Lets face it Disney is a big place, and it is expensive, but with the proper planning, research and attitude it can be amazing.
Also when you are traveling as a family that far from home for 16 days, you need to be organized and prepared. I have lists of things to pack, lists of things to buy to pack, and lists of things I need to do before going. Yes, I like lists, a lot! I plan these trips out 3 yrs in advance, in fact I start planning when to go back on our drive home.


Now I can be spontaneous too. When the kids are in school I have to be on top of everything. I have Travis's schedule, Kaden's, Tessa's, and Dennis's. I have to make sure everyone is where they are suppose to be on the right day and on the right time. This isn't always easy because sometimes I am needed in more then one place at any one time. Sometimes Dennis can help, but most times he can't. Between school, Dr's appointments, Tessa's therapy, grocery shopping, and laundry I have my hands full daily.
So it shouldn't be a surprise I don't like to plan anything during the weekends, school breaks, and summer. I prefer to just have a list of things we want to do, and then see how I feel each day.
During the summer I don't like being tied to any strict schedule. We watch the weather,and make a choice as to what to do the next day, but we aren't locked into that plan either.
If we had a bad night, and didn't sleep well, we just don't go. We tend to have many lazy relaxing days because we are going so much during the school year.
The only down fall of this is if someone wants to come with us to the zoo, or elsewhere it is hard to plan, because I feel locked in. We enjoy having people come with on our adventures, but sometimes we decide to go spur of the moment, when we wake up.

So the plan for today is play with every toy & make big messes, OK?

Now I know both of these scenarios are annoying. Being a neurotic over planner is irritating to some, but also being a spur of the moment, go when the spirit moves you type is also frustrating too.
I know this, and do feel bad sometimes, but my obsessive planning for Disney has always worked amazingly well for us, and frankly my kids enjoy being lazy and spontaneous during the summer. And if you know anything about having a child with Aspergers and Anxiety you would understand how getting Travis to be this way during the summer is a major accomplishment. We are so tied to schedules and routine because of this that I welcome this change with wide open arms and big smiles.

So... What type are you?? Planner or Spontaneous??  And why?

Sorry It's Not Worth My Time!

I had a post ready to go the other day, but I have made a choice to not post it. The reason behind this has nothing to do what so ever with things that have been said. I wrote a post a while back about finding the positive in everything, and I am choosing to find the positive.

So to those who like to think they know me, my life, and like to spread & believe lies about me, I wish you happiness and clarity in your life.

I am now going to move on with my amazing life, I hope you too can someday be as lucky.